| suicide |
[Apr. 4th, 2006|09:28 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | tears | ] |
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| |  sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | hold on by good charlotte | ] |
Well to day was very depressing. A kid in 11th grade commited suicide to day no one knows how but we'll probably find out in the news paper or something. this is the second one this year and 4th one in the last two years. It was an exstreamly quiet day even the kids that were always laughing and talking were now in tears and said nothing... |
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| nothing stays |
[Mar. 11th, 2006|05:52 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | sunset | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drunkish | ] |
| [ | music |
| | jet black new years by Thursday | ] |
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woke up and went to piano. then got new fish. names...In memory~sound effects and overdramatics~skizzorfins~Thrice and the fish that I already had was named Dive Right In. I'm so sick omg it's pasta and italian things...god help me (I get sick when ever I hear Italian names)
-eri- will get a life...some day |
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| season of nothingness |
[Feb. 25th, 2006|01:15 pm] |
blahhh it's stupid saterday usually that would be good but it's not because it means vacations almost over:( I'm so depressed. blahhh so this is what i've done so far today I went to piano then I sang now I'm listening to Crematorium they are a really good death metal band. Season of nothingness man.Ok screw this I'm listening to *as I lay dying* screams it. Confined man that is the best song by them and its an awesome music video too. ahhh I'm so bored. Oh I got 5 fish (guppies) they are so prettyful. names:Marilyn Manson, Bert McCracken, Adam Russell,Dive Right In and In Memory.yeah.ooo rolling stone magazine yay. ok now I'm reading this and they have a...(counts the pages) a 10 page section on fall out boy. ooo it's a sexy guy (cuts out the picture and puts it in my room). ok now I'm cutting out alot of pictures. one of fall out boy and one of Hawthorne Heights:)yeah ok I'm getting weirder by the second I think weeeee. yeah I am. ooo fish. what the hell where did manson go oh he's behind the ship recked ship. talking about my fish. yay for arm wormers I got some and they are awesome Jesse ordered them and we both have them!!! I'm not cold anymore.I'm going to listen to and watch Confined by AS I LAY DYING yeah man.blahhh.Then I'm going to play the sims or watch tv or both I don't know man.
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| can I kill myself yet? |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|05:31 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | i don't know | ] |
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| | :( | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the death song by Marilyn Manson | ] |
this is probably one of the worst day of my life. Well of what used to be my life but I don't care anymore I'm giving up on everything. I'm watching the resons to live fade away. I'm down to one thing left and that's and it's singing well it's something. Yeah so basically I don't know how I could lose singing so I guess ok for now. OH and some people at school need to go die. Thats it for now!!! |
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| Is it posiable to be dead and alive at the same time??? |
[Jan. 28th, 2006|10:38 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | punkadelic man | ] |
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| |  tired and crazy yeah man | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lemon by Katy Rose | ] |
ok there are two words to describe this weekend "yeah man" does hair thing lol long story!!! so Friday came over and we sang and hung out and stuff...then I went over the bridgette phaneauf's house to sleep over. yeah so we stayed up late but not to late looking at this freaking perverted lava lamp omg it was crazy. I swear lava lamps if you look at them for like 3 hours strait you GO CRAZY!!! No joke you start talking like a hippie me bridgette were like yeah man...for like 17 hours. and going crazy talking about this hot guy and this is the conversation we had
yeah man... talking about a hot guy
bridgette p: what would you do if DM knocked on the window right now? what would you say to him?
me: if he knocked on the window right now I would let him in and be like yeah man
bridgette: no seriously
me: I would be like yeah man and you would be like...
bridgette:yeah man
me and bridgette: and he would be like yeah man
me: yeah man(does hair thing)
bridgette: yeah man(does hair thing)
just kept going like this all night lol and then this lava lamp turned into a...
mushroom yeah man
so day I'm like dead this is my away message:
I feel dead just like the time over the summer when I went crazy and started shredding sheets of paper into little tiny peices and putting them in a shoe box (used paper hell I wouldn't waste paper like that so I just used used paper)
anyone want to tell me why Creed is not on yahoomusic or dell musicjukebox thingy??? they are a good band come on people!!! Ok I think I've listened to this song 40 times this week Misunderstood-Motley Crue!!! ahhh!!! |
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| not staying up all night |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|11:20 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | hair:) | ] |
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| |  :) kinda | ] |
| [ | music |
| | swallow the knife by story of the year | ] |
I didn't stay up all night last night mehhh darn well tonight I defently will!!!I stayed up till 12:45 last night ahhh!!! oh well. Oh yeah and my hair looks really good it didn't at first but now that it's all the way dry it looks good. It's this really dark brown coal purpley color.mehhh I would write more but I got to go for beakfast. |
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| today |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|05:43 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | sleepy...no!!! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  POed but its the weekend so ok | ] |
| [ | music |
| | 45 by Shinedown | ] |
ok today was goodish, first I woke up after trying to pull an all nighter but I fell asleep at 11:45 so much for that!!! I couldn't even watch the end of "throne together" which is a good show sometimes (this epasode was a good one). wow I think its the medicine I'm taking becuz sleepiness is a side afect. I'm going to try and stay up all night tonight bring out the icecubes lol. Ok you might wonder why I'm trying to stay up all night well the reason is...acually there is no reason it just makes the weekend longer!!! ok this what I did for the rest of the day Anna and my grandma came over and I tryed to dye my hair with this stuff but it didn't work very well and now my hair is all screwed up and stuff ahhh I'm pissed off.yeah so thats pretty much it for today I might write again later when I'm trying to stay up really late!!!:/ |
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| I don't know stuff... |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|05:27 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | vacation | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | nothing I guess | ] |
| [ | music |
| | blue and yellow by the used | ] |
I haven't written in here for a while and all of my friends are like you got to write more so I'm going to write some stuff...Today I went after 10 days and a "snow day" off back to school it sucked!!! but then again when does school not suck???right??? so any ways thats all that went on today but over the vacation I got to spend most of my time with Hannah H. She's my friend from Concord MA, which is about 20 minutes away if your driving a rasecar and I wasn't so it's like 30 minutes away or so. But any ways on monday me and Hannah went to the mall and we had an intresting time going into spencers because Hannah had only been in it once (they don't have one at the mall she usually goes to). Then on wednesday we got together again to go to this Rollarblading/lazor tag/game place and I got 276 tickets for prises and she got 272 so we both got tuns of stuff well not that that that much but still it was good we got matching black and red braclets and candy. Then we went to Lazor tag that was intresting becaue I had never played before...but it was an awsome place to go to. Then on saterday I went over to Hannah's house and she had some of her friends over Torri and Morleene who were cool!!! We went out for dinner and stuff...then I went to a straight up gangsta party lol bridgette jk no I didn't it's just an inside joke...it was a party with some of the people my dad works with and some other random people...It was ok we got to see their dogs and got desserts and food...and some people talked to me and I freaked them out so then they complained to my dad and my dads said:eri stop being yourself!!! yeah right dad no way!!! oh yeah and my dads friend came for x-mas and I got close,lots of cds and some random games and other stuff...and bridgette (my friend from westport which is an hour away) came over on monday that was fun we got to sing and listen to music and practise screaming lol outside that was funny oh yeah then I had to hide from this guy mark bridgettes moms "friend" becuz he knows one of my really bad secrets from some who had to kept Iming bridgette when Mark was on the computer...mahhh it's awkword seeing someone when they know your secret and you don't want them to know well thats it for today and this vacation and stuff I'll write later bye proabably alot of spelling errors and stuff I didn't edit it lol |
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| NH |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|06:50 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | :( | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | :( | ] |
| [ | music |
| | going under by evanescence | ] |
today I went to nh to viset my friends that was ok I guess. we went to this litttle store and it was reallly sad because I walked in and saw this bird and it was so load and stuff and my friend was trying to talk to it whitch was a bit funnny...but anyways for the sad part there was another bird in the corner of the room and it loooked kinda sadddish so i went over to the cage and the skin was bare on the back of it's neck...I ask why and the person told me that some birds like to bite their feathers offf...:( so me and my friend tryed to teach it not to do that and it seeemed to stop but when we walked away it would do it again...it was time to leave the store so we had to go...yeah that was kinda it but it was reallly sad... |
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| I don't feel so great |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|10:43 pm] |
today sucked I woke up sick but my mom made me go to school...so I was like eh, screw you buddy...not out load becuz when I do that she gets so mad. So I made it till after ss then I felt like I was going to barf so I went home sick in the middle of french.Then I just slept for a few hours so now I'm all awake so...any ways I'm reading stuff on this GC fan site it's pretty cool I've been doing that for a few hours now I just quit just now becuz I got to the end of one of the articles.* oh and the thing I had in my away message I've decide that it's to private to share so I'm sry but I can't really say it becuz I don't know who has my sn it could be some really gossippy kid that could tell the whole school. if you want to know what it is IM me plz I don't care anyone can ask about it and I'll tell them I just like to know who I'm telling before I tell them. thats the bad thing about livejournal you don't know who is looking at it... so yeah this was a kinda sad day for me...All I'm going to say is that GC helped me through alot...not origal I know about abillion people who say that...so if your sad listen to them...when it doesn't work for some people but it might so worth a try...I'm reading stuff about Benji and Joels dad leaving them and it's really depressing. :( |
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| what not taking my med does to me ahhh |
[Dec. 11th, 2005|09:10 pm] |
ok so I woke up at...fucking 5:59 exactly and I'm all awake and shiz so I'm going downstairs...me: I think I'll be watching the mtv and vh1 music videos becuz all thoe most of its crap some times they have good music like...Bon Jovi,Good Charlotte,Shinedown,Switchfoot,Seether,system of a down,evanescence and other music that is pretty good...so I'm watching it and I'm like oh great eminem so I flipped to vh1 and it was some Maddonna crap or black eyed peas I forget which one but anyways I'm like ok I guess I'll watch eminem I mean sometimes he's pretty good...like mockingbird,braindamage...etc...and let me tell you that was one of the most intence music videos I've ever seen...
1.Sillouhettes-smile empty soul
2.My Immortal-Evanescence
3.Question!-system of a down
4.when I'm gone-eminem
5.Jesus of sub.-green day just the end of it when the kid gets all sad and desides to leave his hand print on the bathroom wall
theres alot more but I'll have to talk about them later
...so...as I was saying I'm watching this music video and it's amazing but the thing is in an other month everyone will know the song and I hate that becuz then it losses it's specialness...so anyways again I was up early and I don't take my depression medicine till 7 or later but I'm ok and stuff...then I go on the computer on yahoomusic.com becuz I just have to hear the eminem song again it was so awsome...and after that it was sillouhettes by smile empty soul and it was like two intence songs in arow ahhh I was just about to die but I love these songs so I'm like I'll listen to it one more time...well lets just say that this is what happens when I don't take those medicines...if you know me well you'll know I'm not fun to be arround in a quote by Good Charlotte "I swear the happiest day of my life is the day that I die" so that pretty much sums that up...I'm ok now but you really need to listen to me me becuz I'm telling you the truth trust me I'm not ok I'm not ok well I'm not ok I'm not O fucking K |
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| GOOD FUCKING CHARLOTTE ROCKS!!! |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|10:26 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | gc forever!!! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | I'm freaking crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | every good charlotte song they ever made | ] |
Hannah...read the whole thing...and everyone else should too but especially her...oh and olny read it if you have alot of time trust me...
*awww I'm listening to Good Charlotte and it brings back memories of the summer and the times when they were the only thing I thought about and lol they still are...I love them it just reminds me so much of the ocean...especially east coast anthem...I remember when Hannah came to the cape and we just listened to good charlotte the whole time and roasted hot dogs and marsh mellows and went crazy...great times...awww now I'm listening to seasons...and crying...listening to them is the best awww...I love them forever...
omg the first time I got obsessed with them was in the car on the way to erie PA...I had just got their first real albam titled "good charlotte" the other cds were great but I was just getting over my FUCKING HUGE OBSESSION with green day...screw them they got popular meh...Good charlotte was popular too and I was mad meh but thats ok becuz they are still awsome...so any ways I'm listeing to them and looking out the windows and screaming there songs (good charlottes song not green day) and I was like wow they are amazing...then when I got to PA I was watching tv... and I started liking country music...ahhh lol thats all I watched in PA plus my boy friend at the time that I had loved country music so I was like what the heck it can't be that bad...meh then I started like all these random country singinger that ended fast becuz when I got home I could not listen to them as much then I went to cape cod and the last 8 days me and Hannah jumped around and listened to good charlotte and then we would go body surfing and sing the songs and look at hott people...Hannah you can have that sexy surfer guy Benji is mine forever lol...great times...I love Good Charlotte I don't care about what people say or think about them they still have a place in my heart even if people say they are posers w/e I don't care I think that if your not going to listen to music that you like becuz someone says that they are posers your a poser and who fucking cares anyways I love good charlotte and thats all!!!* yes I tried fitting all of this in my profile...didn't work...duh it's too fucking long so I just put it in here insted I love LJ it's good for these things...ok thats it for now peace out hahaha I just burped and it tasted like roasted hotdog lol can't freaking wait till next year on cape cod more GC Hannah you have to come for longer next time. |
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| snow fucking day hell yeah!!! |
[Dec. 9th, 2005|10:31 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | wowness!!! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  yayness!!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bouncing off the walls by sugarcult | ] |
omg snow day ahhh that sounds preppy not going to say that again no more omgs lol!!! meh I wake up to my alarm and I'm like great you best be giving me the 10 more minutes to sleep so I press the little button 10 minutes later I want an other 10 minutes...but I can becuz then I'd be getting up at 7:30 and thats no good...but I'm like ok one more fucking minute...then I go back to sleep an hour and a half later...I look at the clock...9:00 oh shit I'm missing school< well that was not the worst thing I was like maybe my mom forgot to wake up lol hmmm...I'll just go down stairs to get a snack and go back to bed...my moms sitting down stair oh great I'm probably going to have to go to school...mom:it's a snow day...I look out side and I see white lol eri sees white...lol phil sees blue...lol I love Bam...so anyways I was all excited and I'm like omg!!! ahhh not an other omg I got to listen to sugarcult becuz they are all exciting and I always listen to them when I'm excited...not there albam palm trees and power lines...thats a sad albam but there other one is exciting so...I listened to all that shiz and stuff lol yay!!!IM HAPPY!!!I'm bouncing off the walls again!!! |
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| boring |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|10:57 pm] |
meh I was sick again today but I got to miss the soc. st. debated which was really good becuz I was not at all perpared for that thing. I woke up at 11 and then for the rest of the day I just relaxed and stuff it was a boring day but thats ok at lest I got play my new computer game. |
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| sick meh! |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|09:27 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | sick meh! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  very sick! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | from the inside by Linkin Park | ] |
meh I'm sick sry bridgette and matt your probably going to get sick too:(
ok here's what I did...
1. get up
2.play guitar
3.breakfast
4.homework ick that was alot of work
5.took a really long nap which was good becuz I woke up feeling fine but then I felt sickish after so not so good I guess
6.got a new computer game so I played that for about 4.5 hrs
thats it for today it was pretty good except I was sick meh! |
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| fun!!! |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|09:58 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | !!! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hehehe | ] |
| [ | music |
| | anthem of our dying day byStory of the year | ] |
today was awsome!!! I got to see bridgette for the first time in like months!!! lol it was so funny when we were in the car after getting icecream and the spoon goes flying!!! good times!!!hahaha and bridgette got to see Bam for the first time me:do you want to see another epasode? bridgette:no ones enough! I know she loved it lol!!! Then I got to see matt!!! yay!!!yeah alot of stuff happened at his house but thats not aproperate for you kids!!!lol...wow
yay!!! |
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| happy heheh yay! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2005|05:27 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | yay! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | yayness!!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | goodbye to you by Michelle Branch | ] |
today was good becuz matt came over and we just acted stupid like usual lol but now I'm sad that he's gone.:( but I might see him again after bridgette leaves tmw.yay bridgette is FINALLY coming over wow it's been like months! This is going to be a great weekend except for the science project,20 flash cards for the debate in soc st and other stupid hw stuff. oh well screw it for now I'm happy yay!lol eh screw you buddy lol that was so funny matt! |
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| some people at my school really piss me off |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|03:05 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | meh! | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  very mad!!! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | stare at the sun by Thrice | ] |
yeah ok here it goes...
the people at my school need to stop being rasist (that really bugs me). in sted of say oh your always trying to act black you should say your always trying to act gangster. oh and the people who wear polo and act gangster are really stupid lol jeezy guys!!! lol some people crack me up!!!The rasism has to stop guys!!! I mean why are people all of a sudden being rasist I guess it's the new thing to do psshh get a life and stop being stupid!!! and that is it for my lovely rant on rasism. meh!!! |
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